Current Slave JessieKay:
11/25/2011 3:13:21 PM Yesterday, I had one of the best times serving Mistress Kay. Lately Mistress has been very busy with many things lifestyle wise as she is seeking to own a devoted slave. But this morning, I could tell a big difference in Mistress right away--she seemed very sad, though she tried not to show it. I soon found out that her latest slave applicant had canceled on Mistress in the middle of the day, she had been waiting on his service for days and they seemed to really be hitting it off. She was shocked and sad and I wanted to instantly make her day better. So I took it upon myself to do all the chores she had for him to do that day without asking her. I started cleaning the kitchen, and somehow slipped into subspace and I craved Mistress's control. But I didn't dare ask right away as she was still upset. Mistress' face lit up when she realized I had started the chores in the house and told me how happy she was to have me in her life, how she craved to just focus her energy on making our relationship stronger and I knew it was the time I could ask to serve her. Mistress was very kind in saying that she would allow it, and it excited me, I could barely sit still all day. I finished cleaning the entire house trying my best to please Mistress.
When I told Mistress I was finished cleaning She instructed me to have a seat and rest. It was in no time Mistress was teasing me by pulling on my hard cock. Mistress made my cock very hard by her soft hands. then she began to pull me off the couch and down to the floor till my face was at her feet. Mistress Kay then instructed me to begin to kiss and worship her lovely feet. I began to gradually kiss her feet and toes. Then my mind went blank of everything else but Mistress's feet. I began to lick between her toes and sucking them so lightly hearing her moans, so I knew I was doing it right. Mistress then started to coarse me to let go of my self and suck her feet like a cock. As i began to lick her feet Mistress would say how good of a cock sucker I would, and how sexy I looked with her whole foot in my mouth. I was lost in sub-space, then Mistress pulled her foot away, and replaced it with her other foot that I greedily accepted in my wide open mouth. Next Mistress wanted a back rub that turned into a full upper body rub. When Mistress was satisfied with her body rub. She released me till I was further needed.
Later Mistress grabbed me by my hair and told me to follow her. As I followed Mistress my excitement grew, knowing that Mistress wanted to play with me tonight. I watched her tall body sway down the hall way. Mistress never looking more beautiful to me than this moment. Mistress pushed me on my back immediately as I got into the bedroom. Went to the closet and grabbed what were her panties, and shoved them into my mouth. Mistress ripped my pants and panties down, off, and threw them to the side. She ordered me to take my shirt off and wait. Mistress went to the closet returning with her restraints, and my new bra and panty set. First Mistress put my panties and pulled them into place, then she put on my bra, and my wig. Telling me I was her beautiful girl and property. Mistress would also make comments to me about how i was such a slut, her slut, and anything else she could come up with. I really like when she calls me her slut or whore. I just tingle inside when I hear those words escape her beautiful lips.
When Mistress finished putting the restraints on, she then told me she had some things to do. Mistress told me to wait and she wouldn't be long, it was then I felt her slap my ass. Mistress then brought her lap top with a porn that she had specifically picked out for her slut to watch. The video was about a Mistress making a submissive Transgender girl her slut. The Mistress would spank her new plaything over her knee. Then she made her suck her strap-on till the Mistress was throat fucking her play toy. As I laid there watching the porn as I'm tied up, my mind would race wondering what exactly Mistress had in store for me when she returned. When the video was finished Mistress walked back in the room asking me if I was enjoying myself. All I could do was moan into the gag with sounds of pleasure. Mistress then put another video on for me to watch. This video was about many different scenes of hung black guys fucking all sorts of girls. This video was very teasing to me when a scene would appear it would change with another hot scene. The black guy had huge fat cocks and made me want one taking me like the girls on the videos. This last almost 20 mins or so then Mistress Kay reappeared. She had a huge smile on her face. Mistress said she loved having her sexy girl all tied up in her bed.
I really enjoyed being tied up and made to wait for Mistress to be ready to use me like the black guys on the video and the Mistress in the first video. Mistress first lubed up my hole then I felt her fingers slide in nice and easy, I was so excited. Mistress began to tease my hole open for her. Mistress would fill my hole with all her fingers then she pulled them out, and I felt so empty. Mistress then presented her black cock that 11 inches and very fat. Telling me to beg for her cock. I begged till she was happy and began to penetrate me. Mistress commented how easily I took her cock and how it drove her crazy seeing me be such a slut for her. Mistress began sliding the cock as deep as it would go then would pull out, over and over again. She would then stoke me very fast going deeper and deeper with each stroke till she was bottoming out and making me wiggle in my restraints. I found my self feeling dizzy and a feeling of weightlessness like I was floating on a cloud took over. I could feel the love Mistress has for me being her property. She has trained me for almost two years to take big cocks for her. I feel proud each time I am pushed by Mistress Kay and she says I do a great job taking her cocks. I love Mistress Kay and would do anything she asks of me. I feel like I need to please her each day I wake up, and I'm very lucky to get to be in her presence. When Mistress was finished she said that I was to go clean my slutty self up, and return to relax the rest of the evening with her. It was a amazing time and I'm glad Mistress asked me to write this journal to share with all. Thank you Mistress Kay I love you so much.
When I told Mistress I was finished cleaning She instructed me to have a seat and rest. It was in no time Mistress was teasing me by pulling on my hard cock. Mistress made my cock very hard by her soft hands. then she began to pull me off the couch and down to the floor till my face was at her feet. Mistress Kay then instructed me to begin to kiss and worship her lovely feet. I began to gradually kiss her feet and toes. Then my mind went blank of everything else but Mistress's feet. I began to lick between her toes and sucking them so lightly hearing her moans, so I knew I was doing it right. Mistress then started to coarse me to let go of my self and suck her feet like a cock. As i began to lick her feet Mistress would say how good of a cock sucker I would, and how sexy I looked with her whole foot in my mouth. I was lost in sub-space, then Mistress pulled her foot away, and replaced it with her other foot that I greedily accepted in my wide open mouth. Next Mistress wanted a back rub that turned into a full upper body rub. When Mistress was satisfied with her body rub. She released me till I was further needed.
Later Mistress grabbed me by my hair and told me to follow her. As I followed Mistress my excitement grew, knowing that Mistress wanted to play with me tonight. I watched her tall body sway down the hall way. Mistress never looking more beautiful to me than this moment. Mistress pushed me on my back immediately as I got into the bedroom. Went to the closet and grabbed what were her panties, and shoved them into my mouth. Mistress ripped my pants and panties down, off, and threw them to the side. She ordered me to take my shirt off and wait. Mistress went to the closet returning with her restraints, and my new bra and panty set. First Mistress put my panties and pulled them into place, then she put on my bra, and my wig. Telling me I was her beautiful girl and property. Mistress would also make comments to me about how i was such a slut, her slut, and anything else she could come up with. I really like when she calls me her slut or whore. I just tingle inside when I hear those words escape her beautiful lips.
When Mistress finished putting the restraints on, she then told me she had some things to do. Mistress told me to wait and she wouldn't be long, it was then I felt her slap my ass. Mistress then brought her lap top with a porn that she had specifically picked out for her slut to watch. The video was about a Mistress making a submissive Transgender girl her slut. The Mistress would spank her new plaything over her knee. Then she made her suck her strap-on till the Mistress was throat fucking her play toy. As I laid there watching the porn as I'm tied up, my mind would race wondering what exactly Mistress had in store for me when she returned. When the video was finished Mistress walked back in the room asking me if I was enjoying myself. All I could do was moan into the gag with sounds of pleasure. Mistress then put another video on for me to watch. This video was about many different scenes of hung black guys fucking all sorts of girls. This video was very teasing to me when a scene would appear it would change with another hot scene. The black guy had huge fat cocks and made me want one taking me like the girls on the videos. This last almost 20 mins or so then Mistress Kay reappeared. She had a huge smile on her face. Mistress said she loved having her sexy girl all tied up in her bed.
I really enjoyed being tied up and made to wait for Mistress to be ready to use me like the black guys on the video and the Mistress in the first video. Mistress first lubed up my hole then I felt her fingers slide in nice and easy, I was so excited. Mistress began to tease my hole open for her. Mistress would fill my hole with all her fingers then she pulled them out, and I felt so empty. Mistress then presented her black cock that 11 inches and very fat. Telling me to beg for her cock. I begged till she was happy and began to penetrate me. Mistress commented how easily I took her cock and how it drove her crazy seeing me be such a slut for her. Mistress began sliding the cock as deep as it would go then would pull out, over and over again. She would then stoke me very fast going deeper and deeper with each stroke till she was bottoming out and making me wiggle in my restraints. I found my self feeling dizzy and a feeling of weightlessness like I was floating on a cloud took over. I could feel the love Mistress has for me being her property. She has trained me for almost two years to take big cocks for her. I feel proud each time I am pushed by Mistress Kay and she says I do a great job taking her cocks. I love Mistress Kay and would do anything she asks of me. I feel like I need to please her each day I wake up, and I'm very lucky to get to be in her presence. When Mistress was finished she said that I was to go clean my slutty self up, and return to relax the rest of the evening with her. It was a amazing time and I'm glad Mistress asked me to write this journal to share with all. Thank you Mistress Kay I love you so much.
10/13/2011 1:51:12 PM [Report Entry]
I can always tell when Mistress wants to be served, she stares at me and smiles wide. She tells me she wants pampered and I say "Yes Mistress" instinctively.
Mistress lined out how I was going to spoil her: pampering her with a shower and relaxation, a foot massage, and I was going to get her off orally if I did well while serving her.
Wanting that reward so badly, I went immediately to start Mistress's shower, making sure she had everything needed for me to wash her beautiful, curvy body. I went back to the living room to let Mistress know that everything was prepared and Mistress then told me to follow her to the bathroom on my hands and knees. When i began crawling Mistress placed her hand on the top of my head and lead with me very close behind. Watching Mistress's amazing body sway made me want her more than before. Mistress would stop every few steps and make me run into her smelling her beautiful pussy through her panties. Before she stepped into the shower, she held me there for a long time, letting me breathe her in. Mistress scent was beyond intoxicating and smelled sweet. I was told to prepare Mistress with some fresh panties to her to wear. After I was finished assisting Mistress into the shower, I continued preparing all of Mistress's Domme gear she requested be ready.
As she showered, I held my collar and thought about how much I loved what it symbolized and how much I had grown to love her. I love serving such a dominant strong woman, and being her owned property. I smiled and then went on to complete my tasks. Mistress called me to the shower and told me she was ready for me to wash her body. I love having the privilege to touch her, but her naked and soapy body is such a treat. I don't know what I did to deserve this.
When Mistress was done, she commanded me to follow her to her bed. She placed my collar tight and snug around my neck. I loved the feeling that my collar clamp tight..it completes me and puts me right into sub space. Mistress attached her leash to my collar and as she gives it a tug forward, she tells me to follow on my hands and knees.
I was filled with excitement--it's not everyday that you get to touch Mistress so freely. Mistress wanted her foot rub first. I started massaging Mistress's feet and she started to ask my thoughts and reminiscing about our relationship. We both connected and I answered her questions with ease. I really enjoy being an open book to Mistress and letting her know my true feelings when asked. She always allows her submissives chances to talk about their feelings, but only when she decides it's an appropriate moment. It was very special, she really knows when the right times are. She knows all of my deepest secrets and she's spent so much time building a relationship with me. Mistress and I chatted away getting lost in her foot rub--she was glowing and beautiful. As tears welled up in my eyes because our conversation hit so close to my heart Miistress pulls me close and comforts me between her breasts. Mistress whispers the sweetest words about my service and how happy she is to have me as a slave. I live to hear these words from Mistress Kay. Mistress then orders me to kiss her (a very rare occasion, ) and the room begins to spin as our lips meet. I struggle to keep my composure as Mistress then tells me very sweetly that she wants me to worship her body starting with her breasts. I am in love with Mistress Kay's breasts, they are truly the most amazing pair I have ever seen. I feel like I am in heaven any time i get to touch or kiss them, so I begin eagerly the way she has trained me she likes--sucking and biting sensually. As i can see Mistress is enjoying my worship, she orders me lower slowly working my way down, enjoying every moment.
As I get close I can smell the intoxicating scent of Mistress's lovely vagina. I could only think about how much I wanted to taste her at this moment. This is a moment I truly treasure, the anticipation of her sweetness less than a few inches from me. Mistress instructed me to proceed to please her slowly at first with long stokes with my tongue. As she demanded certain ways I was to please her with my mouth, Mistress began asking me questions that could be answered with a head nod or a shake so I didn't have to move my mouth off of her. They were dirty questions-- asking how she tasted and what I'd do to get fucked as I liked her. She drives you crazy with desire and makes your cock strain so much it's torture. As she got closer and closer to cumming, she made me look her in the eyes and lap up her cum as it gushed out of her.
I felt her hands pull on my collar and she drenched me with her cum. She pulled me off of her after she caught her breath, she made fun of me for being such a dirty cum slut.
I just smiled.
"Yes Mistress, I love being your dirty cum slut."
Mistress lined out how I was going to spoil her: pampering her with a shower and relaxation, a foot massage, and I was going to get her off orally if I did well while serving her.
Wanting that reward so badly, I went immediately to start Mistress's shower, making sure she had everything needed for me to wash her beautiful, curvy body. I went back to the living room to let Mistress know that everything was prepared and Mistress then told me to follow her to the bathroom on my hands and knees. When i began crawling Mistress placed her hand on the top of my head and lead with me very close behind. Watching Mistress's amazing body sway made me want her more than before. Mistress would stop every few steps and make me run into her smelling her beautiful pussy through her panties. Before she stepped into the shower, she held me there for a long time, letting me breathe her in. Mistress scent was beyond intoxicating and smelled sweet. I was told to prepare Mistress with some fresh panties to her to wear. After I was finished assisting Mistress into the shower, I continued preparing all of Mistress's Domme gear she requested be ready.
As she showered, I held my collar and thought about how much I loved what it symbolized and how much I had grown to love her. I love serving such a dominant strong woman, and being her owned property. I smiled and then went on to complete my tasks. Mistress called me to the shower and told me she was ready for me to wash her body. I love having the privilege to touch her, but her naked and soapy body is such a treat. I don't know what I did to deserve this.
When Mistress was done, she commanded me to follow her to her bed. She placed my collar tight and snug around my neck. I loved the feeling that my collar clamp tight..it completes me and puts me right into sub space. Mistress attached her leash to my collar and as she gives it a tug forward, she tells me to follow on my hands and knees.
I was filled with excitement--it's not everyday that you get to touch Mistress so freely. Mistress wanted her foot rub first. I started massaging Mistress's feet and she started to ask my thoughts and reminiscing about our relationship. We both connected and I answered her questions with ease. I really enjoy being an open book to Mistress and letting her know my true feelings when asked. She always allows her submissives chances to talk about their feelings, but only when she decides it's an appropriate moment. It was very special, she really knows when the right times are. She knows all of my deepest secrets and she's spent so much time building a relationship with me. Mistress and I chatted away getting lost in her foot rub--she was glowing and beautiful. As tears welled up in my eyes because our conversation hit so close to my heart Miistress pulls me close and comforts me between her breasts. Mistress whispers the sweetest words about my service and how happy she is to have me as a slave. I live to hear these words from Mistress Kay. Mistress then orders me to kiss her (a very rare occasion, ) and the room begins to spin as our lips meet. I struggle to keep my composure as Mistress then tells me very sweetly that she wants me to worship her body starting with her breasts. I am in love with Mistress Kay's breasts, they are truly the most amazing pair I have ever seen. I feel like I am in heaven any time i get to touch or kiss them, so I begin eagerly the way she has trained me she likes--sucking and biting sensually. As i can see Mistress is enjoying my worship, she orders me lower slowly working my way down, enjoying every moment.
As I get close I can smell the intoxicating scent of Mistress's lovely vagina. I could only think about how much I wanted to taste her at this moment. This is a moment I truly treasure, the anticipation of her sweetness less than a few inches from me. Mistress instructed me to proceed to please her slowly at first with long stokes with my tongue. As she demanded certain ways I was to please her with my mouth, Mistress began asking me questions that could be answered with a head nod or a shake so I didn't have to move my mouth off of her. They were dirty questions-- asking how she tasted and what I'd do to get fucked as I liked her. She drives you crazy with desire and makes your cock strain so much it's torture. As she got closer and closer to cumming, she made me look her in the eyes and lap up her cum as it gushed out of her.
I felt her hands pull on my collar and she drenched me with her cum. She pulled me off of her after she caught her breath, she made fun of me for being such a dirty cum slut.
I just smiled.
"Yes Mistress, I love being your dirty cum slut."
10/6/2011 8:39:51 PM [Report Entry]
Today my day started my Mistress Kay casually until I felt her crop touch my shoulder. I had been so occupied playing football on the X Box, I had failed to notice Mistress had set up a feminization session with out me even noticing. Mistress told me to stand and quit what I was doing immediately and She ordered me to come with Her.
Mistress led me to the bathroom and instructed me to get completely smooth and clean to look as pretty as possible. At this point I was so shocked but totally excited. It seemed like it took forever as I was removed all my body hair. Mistress would step in to check on my progress every so often. When I was finished I stepped out the bathroom in a pink robe Mistress picked out for Me.
I went over to Mistress and dropped to my knees seeing how beautiful she looked in her heels and panties. Mistress told me to turn around and show her my "pretty little ass." Then she placed a buttplug far into me and as she pushed it in, she remarked on my moans of pleasure. Mistress inspected my work, telling how great my body looked. She then painted my fingers and toe nails a pearly bright pink. After Mistress finished painting my nails, She got out the tweezers and began to shape my eyebrows. When Mistress finished my eyebrows, She began to apply makeup. This whole process is so overwhelming and I find myself losing myself into this new role in my life as jessie. Every time Mistress would tell me how great I looked I would sink further and further into my new female persona.
Mistress then had me stand to put on the dress she had laid out for me to wear. As Mistress was preparing her slut, we had conversations about how the proper way women speak.
When Mistress was finished talking to her slave, She placed a pair of her panties into my mouth. Mistress then took some PVC tape and begun to wrap it around my mouth till it was very secure. Mistress then proceeded to put the restraints on my wrists and ankles. Telling me she had some things she was wanting to get done before she played with her slut jessie. She explained she had found a video that she wanted to share as I waited. She instructed me to lay on my back on the bed she locked my wrists to my ankles. Mistress teased me by touching me all over and playing with my clit making it very big, hard, and sensitive. This making me wiggle and moan into my mouth gag. Mistress then placed her lap top in front of my face so i could see. Mistress then started the video and turned her web cam on so I could be monitored from the other room. As the video started, I learned it was about a sissy academy. There were two redheaded dommes that transformed the sissy at first and then they began cock training their sissy with their strap-ons. The Dommes had a very strict cock training regiment. They always kept a cock in the sissy's mouth or ass at all times. The video was very entertaining, but my mind kept racing back to the situation I was in. Mistress returned a couple times during the video to check on me, and accepted some random cam invites she received so she could let others watch. Not knowing who exactly was watching me while I laid there restrained, with no where to go, excited me.
As the video finished Mistress returned and told me she was ready to give me my cock training. Mistress put on her strap-on. She marked my ass all over with lipstick and took pictures of me and put them on her journal to keep CM update.
Then she instructed me to place a condom on her cock. Mistress picked out a blueberry flavored condom and it was even blue colored! Mistress then had me to start sucking her cock slowly at first. Mistress told me to take more and more of her cock into my mouth. I really liked feeling her cock in my mouth and I almost died in happiness when she would thrust it deeper into my mouth making me take it more and more. When Mistress was happy with my sucking practice, she had me get on all fours, and Mistress pushed her cock into me deep with only a couple stokes. I could only moan and want more cock from Mistress as she fucked me hard and deep with her cock. Mistress then had me ride her till she was very satisfied with her her cock training and I begged for mercy. I loved this session with Mistress...and as a treat she made me keep my toes painted! Thank you so much Mistress Kay for your attention and the wonderful day.. xoxoxo Jessie Kay
Mistress led me to the bathroom and instructed me to get completely smooth and clean to look as pretty as possible. At this point I was so shocked but totally excited. It seemed like it took forever as I was removed all my body hair. Mistress would step in to check on my progress every so often. When I was finished I stepped out the bathroom in a pink robe Mistress picked out for Me.
I went over to Mistress and dropped to my knees seeing how beautiful she looked in her heels and panties. Mistress told me to turn around and show her my "pretty little ass." Then she placed a buttplug far into me and as she pushed it in, she remarked on my moans of pleasure. Mistress inspected my work, telling how great my body looked. She then painted my fingers and toe nails a pearly bright pink. After Mistress finished painting my nails, She got out the tweezers and began to shape my eyebrows. When Mistress finished my eyebrows, She began to apply makeup. This whole process is so overwhelming and I find myself losing myself into this new role in my life as jessie. Every time Mistress would tell me how great I looked I would sink further and further into my new female persona.
Mistress then had me stand to put on the dress she had laid out for me to wear. As Mistress was preparing her slut, we had conversations about how the proper way women speak.
When Mistress was finished talking to her slave, She placed a pair of her panties into my mouth. Mistress then took some PVC tape and begun to wrap it around my mouth till it was very secure. Mistress then proceeded to put the restraints on my wrists and ankles. Telling me she had some things she was wanting to get done before she played with her slut jessie. She explained she had found a video that she wanted to share as I waited. She instructed me to lay on my back on the bed she locked my wrists to my ankles. Mistress teased me by touching me all over and playing with my clit making it very big, hard, and sensitive. This making me wiggle and moan into my mouth gag. Mistress then placed her lap top in front of my face so i could see. Mistress then started the video and turned her web cam on so I could be monitored from the other room. As the video started, I learned it was about a sissy academy. There were two redheaded dommes that transformed the sissy at first and then they began cock training their sissy with their strap-ons. The Dommes had a very strict cock training regiment. They always kept a cock in the sissy's mouth or ass at all times. The video was very entertaining, but my mind kept racing back to the situation I was in. Mistress returned a couple times during the video to check on me, and accepted some random cam invites she received so she could let others watch. Not knowing who exactly was watching me while I laid there restrained, with no where to go, excited me.
As the video finished Mistress returned and told me she was ready to give me my cock training. Mistress put on her strap-on. She marked my ass all over with lipstick and took pictures of me and put them on her journal to keep CM update.
Then she instructed me to place a condom on her cock. Mistress picked out a blueberry flavored condom and it was even blue colored! Mistress then had me to start sucking her cock slowly at first. Mistress told me to take more and more of her cock into my mouth. I really liked feeling her cock in my mouth and I almost died in happiness when she would thrust it deeper into my mouth making me take it more and more. When Mistress was happy with my sucking practice, she had me get on all fours, and Mistress pushed her cock into me deep with only a couple stokes. I could only moan and want more cock from Mistress as she fucked me hard and deep with her cock. Mistress then had me ride her till she was very satisfied with her her cock training and I begged for mercy. I loved this session with Mistress...and as a treat she made me keep my toes painted! Thank you so much Mistress Kay for your attention and the wonderful day.. xoxoxo Jessie Kay
| 1/7/2011 11:58:39 PM |
Today as I opened my eyes Mistress surprised me with a slave day. Mistress explained that we was going to have our first slave day in our new home! I was excited, because I hadn’t served Mistress in my slave roll in a while. My first task was to get up, and make Mistress her coffee for the morning. I went down stairs to make Mistress her coffee. When I returned with Mistress’s coffee I helped her prepare her coffee the way she likes it. I first put in the creamer, then I stirred it for Mistress. I returned to the kitchen to put the creamer back into the refrigerator, and to fix myself the remaining coffee. As I entered the bedroom I was told to chat with some submissives. I spent the next couple hours messaging submissives with Mistress. Then out of the blue Mistress ordered me to the bed on all fours. Mistress then began spanking me with her slapper. She started out slow at first, but then work her pace up. The faster Mistress spanked me the harder it had gotten. Mistress loves to see how much, and how hard she can go with me. Mistress also used her flogger after I begged her to let me have a break. I could feel the weight of the flogger crashing down on my skin hard. I can hear Mistress giggle as she slaps me hard. A couple times I barely could take the pain and started to move a little. I would say this was the hardest Mistress has spanked me yet. When Mistress ordered me up she said that was one hundred strokes of her whip. Mistress then placed my leather collar around my neck. After Mistress got out as I was folding Mistress clothes she ordered me to put one of her shirts on. Mistress didn’t like the way it looked on me. Mistress was laughing at the way her clothing fit on me. Then I was ordered to put another one of her shirts on it fit better. Then Mistress had me put on a Black skirt. She then told me to take off the top and just pull up the skirt like a dress and cover my boobs. The dress wouldn’t stay because my 'boobs' were too small. Mistress then grabbed her bra and a couple t shirts to make me some boobs, because I don’t have any. Then I was ordered to pull my dress up. Mistress inspected her slave, then Mistress told me to continue. As I continued cleaning the rooms up stairs Mistress taught me proper manners as a lady along the way. Mistress showed me how to bend down to pick things off the floor properly, without flashing my bits to everyone. I spent a couple hours cleaning wearing my dress. Mistress then had me make her a late lunch. After I made Mistress her lunch I was allowed to prepare my own and Mistress and I ate our lunch together. When I was finished with lunch. Mistress ordered me to leave on my panties and go put my man clothes back on. We left soon after to run errands and visit with friends. Mistress soon released me as we went on with our evening...but I still wore her panties the whole night and kept thinking about my first day as Her sissy Jessy.
12/27/2010 10:13:34 PM
Today Mistress, and I spent the morning text chatting while she was at work. We talked about how much we truly enjoy each other, and our lifestyle choice. I live to serve her and she lives to control me. Mistress instructed me that she was wanting me to serve her in the afternoon. I was so excited to be able to make her happy in any way she asked of me. I love making Mistress happy it’s been my whole life since we have met. Mistress tasked me to be ready when she got off work so we could go shopping together. She also told me to wear a pair of her panties under my clothing. I picked out a bright blue pair. She also had me send her pictures of me in her panties. She liked the pictures a lot, and said she was very excited about them too. She told me that was her ass and I was her slut. Being Mistress Kay’s slut is my life now, and I’ve never been happier. Mistress also said my ass looked very feminine. I liked taking pictures of my ass they looked really hot. As Mistress and I were walking around the store shopping she would giggle and laugh noticing the panties were riding up. I would try to pull them down not to be noticed, but Mistress notices everything. After Mistress, and I finished shopping we headed back to our house. I carried the stuff we bought in, and put it away. Mistress and I were talking about our life together. I told Mistress that I love to be her property, and serve her. Mistress said she was very happy and she wasn’t going to let me go anywhere. Mistress instructed me to follow her to our room. I went to my knees like I know I’m supposed to. She told me to crawl to her on my knees. When I got close she grabbed me and held me tight. She whispered how much she had missed me serving her, and how I was going to please her with my ass today. Then Mistress instructed me to the bed on my hands, and knees. Mistress began spanking me with her hand making my ass red. Mistress then instructed me to my stomach. Mistress placed my leather collar around my neck. I felt the slapper next land on my ass it stings, and has a distinct feeling. Mistress loves to push my limits with spanking seeing how much she can make me take. It gives her a lot of pleasure pushing me through the pain to her pleasure point. I can her the laughs, and giggles as she gives me a break from the spanking. Mistress used her flogger, and her slapper all over my ass making it hot to touch. When Mistress had enough of spanking me. Mistress asked me if I wanted her cock. I said, “yes” Mistress asked how bad. Mistress instructed me to beg for her cock. I begged for her to use me as her slut. I wanted her to fuck me so bad I would do anything. Mistress asked me to bark so I replied with an Arrrfff. We both were really enjoying our time together. Mistress is great at using me with her strap on. Mistress has always taken a lot of pride in the way she can fuck an ass, and she is amazing at it. I could feel Mistress behind me now. The tip of her huge black cock was at the edge of my hole. Mistress began to penetrate me. Then she instructed me to my back with my legs up. When I flipped over Mistress said she wanted to watch her whore take her cock. She looked me into my eyes as she pushed her big cock deep. Mistress’s cock pushed deep inside me with one push. I was very as Mistress told me how I was her whore, and only hers. Mistress had me ride her big black cock. While I was taking all of her cock Mistress told me how slutty I looked. She told me I looked so hot taking all of her cock while I was riding her. I did feel slutty taking her big cock. But I do love being Mistress’s slut. She always fucks me so good, and hard. She makes me lose control of where and what I’m doing a lot of times. It’s then when I don’t address her properly or do as I’m told. I get slapped in the balls, and punished. Mistress really hates when she has to interrupt our great moment with punishments. I always deserve them when she does, and they usually are a lot more extreme than normal. When Mistress has had enough she tells me to clean up everything and that I’m going to help her cook dinner shortly. I finish cleaning up all the gear, and myself. I go to help prepare Mistress, and I meal for dinner. We ended up having a great evening together me serving Mistress. Thank you Mistress for being so beautiful, strong, caring, and taking such excellent care of your property...
11/14/2010 10:27:15 PM: MY Journey to my Mistress: It was about 10 years ago or longer I had started thinking about BDSM. I fantasized about serving a Dominant and strong Woman. I like working under Women as my bosses which I had lots of Women in charge of me at the time. As time passed I would catch myself wanting to be dominated more and more. So when the Internet made it easier to find Woman that was interested in Dominance I was fascinated. At first I would spend days and nights reading and learning about BDSM. I couldn’t fight the feeling the want to serve a strong, and dominate Woman. I spent years learning and wanting to go farther into the life of submission. I wanted to serve a Mistress and be her property. I would dream about this Beautiful, strong, and dominate Woman hand picking me to be hers. Taking me, making me her property, and training me to serve her. When I would think about serving her it would all be sexual thoughts due to my selfishness. Then one day I was sitting at my computer, and I received a new message. So when I clicked on the message to read it I was almost knocked out of my seat. The message stated I was a cute boy and if I was interested to reply with the information about myself. I looked at her profile over and over. I thought to myself with excitement that I should give Mistress a shot. I thought she was so beautiful and that we liked a lot of the same interests. Soon we were chatting, and we planned to meet. This was the first time I had ever made plans to meet in full attentions of meeting. Yes I used to troll the Internet and I have leaded some Woman on during my search into the lifestyle. This time was different for sure I wanted to meet Mistress Kay more than anything. I had finally made the decision to be a submissive and I was going to make it happen. I had even contacted Mistress Kay to bump up my session day we made plans on Saturday. We had the best session I thought at the time. Really I don’t think it could have gone any better for the first meeting. We both seemed to connect, and seemed very happy we had found each other. That whole night after my session I just thought about Mistress. What had happened that day is that I fell head over heals for Mistress. I wanted to do anything for her. I wanted to serve her and only her. The Next day I received a message from Mistress. She wasn’t happy at all I was busted. I had been talking to another Dom at the same time as Mistress. I had lied to Mistress about who I was talking to and not talking to. She had asked me if she was the only Dom I was talking to. I told her yes knowing that it was a lie. I was stuck I didn’t know how to tell the two women I was lying. I thought I had lost Mistress forever at this moment. She would hardly talk to me because I had hurt her deeply with my lies. I was so lucky that she wanted to come talk to me face to face about what I had done. I was so scared to see her, because I knew I was wrong, and I was willing to take any punishment she deemed fit. She was angry when she arrived I thought she might beat me. We set on my couch and she counseled me as her submissive on what I have done wrong. Mistress didn’t beat me as a punishment she just made me tell her why I did it. Then she asked me why she should give me a second chance as her submissive. When Mistress left me I felt so stupid, little, and pathetic. It was the only time I’ve ever felt pathetic. This is where BDSM was turning from sexual wants to me just wanting to serve Mistress for her needs. Serving Mistress is a lifestyle not just a sexual act. It’s my new life being her property 24/7, and I so lucky to be able to serve her. It has changed every way I look at BDSM forever. During the months of my training as Mistress Kay’s alpha slave I have never been happier. Mistress has taught me a lot. She has shown me how I used to be so selfish when it came to women. She has shown me how women feel when we men are selfish. Even my desires have changed. Mistress has made me realize and think about my submission to her as her devoted slave. The trust we have built towards each other has made my limits just drift away to her limits. I want to do anything she asks of me at any time now. Mistress has shown me how to explore all aspects of myself. Like eating my own cum, I never was into it before. Now I jump at the chance to eat my cum for Mistress, my favorite way is eating my own cream pie. Foot worship is another one of her fetishes I have made my own. I love to lick and kiss Mistress feet now I can’t get enough of them. I love how these things make me so submissive. I have taken a look at my previous limits, and see how silly it is to be scared to explore in my relationship with Mistress. I know Mistress would never do anything to damage her property and she just needs my trust. I want to explore myself even more. I never have been into getting spanked. Now I find it can be a very sensual and bonding experience between Mistress and me. My life as a slave is built on a lot of trust. I have put down my guard and given everything to Mistress.
10/13/2010 2:00:09 PM: Mistress As I lay there this morning, as I opened my eyes I see your beautiful face. Your smile amazes me as you talk to me about everyday life. Then you tell me nicely you have to make a phone call. After your phone call you inform me that today I’m going to service you over and over. You tell me how important I am to you, and how I’m going to serve you today. I’m always so happy for every chance I serve you Mistress. You order me to get the case full of your gear and bring it close to you. Then you tell me to drop to my knees. You have me do some simple tasks getting you anything you need or want. When you get to my collar you tell me to kneel, and come close as you strap it in place. You remark about the missing lock for my collar. As you strap my collar on me it always consumes me with thoughts of you Mistress. I’m always so happy to wear my collar for my owner, and then you pull the leash out of your case and click it on to my collar. You tell me to rise up to my feet and follow. You pull me around your house and you stop in front of the window. You comment how beautiful day it is out side, and I agreed you were right. You talk to me asking me if I’m ready to serve to you. I tell I love to serve you, and I want it more than ever. You tell me your going to cock train me today. I tell you yes Mistress, and I’m excited to be used in this way by you. But I’m getting a very submissive feeling. My mind starts to swirl and my blood begins to rush. I feel light headed from the rush of your control. You place me back onto my knees in front of your bed. As you place the neoprene mask over my eyes. You ask if I can see I tell you yes Mistress, but its really cloudy. Then you place a black blindfold over my eyes as you kiss my lips. I can’t see you but I feel and taste your lips. You order me to turn around and my hands are placed behind my back. I feel you place a rope around my wrist’s you tell me to relax them and you bind my wrists behind my back. I’ve never been so filled with passion for you Mistress. I feel your finger being placed on my lips as it outlines my lips. You also put your finger teasingly in and out of my mouth as teasing as possible. Then you walk away and as you return you tell me how good I would look sucking your cock. It was the smallest cock you own out of the three. You place the head of your cock into my mouth you show me exactly how you want sucked. You instruct me and train me how you want me to suck and take all of your cock. As I’m sucking your cock you are reading and studying for your test. When I cant take no more of that task you untie my wrists and pull me by my collar to the chair I still cant see anything at this time. You put my face and tell me to service you. As I lick you I love the taste and smell of you Mistress. It consumes me and all I want is more. Then you pull me to the floor and you climb onto my face controlling the tempo, pressure, and pace. Still reading your book you stop and instruct me how to exactly serve you at that moment. Then Mistress continues to read her book. When you’re finished with your book and my service. You tell me to get behind you and fuck you with my cock. As soon as I enter you I can feel the urge to cum. When I tell you I have the urge you encourage me too. I can feel myself explode inside you; it was an amazing feeling the explosion inside you Mistress. As your getting dressed Mistress you tell me that I’m going to have to clean that mess up I just made inside you sometime today. And I will be happy to lick it up as she feeds me my own cum, as I know it brings her a lot of pleasure. You order me to go to lunch with to a favorite place you love. We share a nice lunch it was very casual, and we talked about us. We have had many important changes lately, but I’ve never been so happy in my life. I have been serving you a lot more often Mistress, and I love to serve you. As we left returned home we stopped by the CVS to get some lube. When we returned home you from the beautiful lunch we spent outside. You tell me to strip my clothes and kneel. You place my collar back around my neck and the mask/blindfold. You tell me how excited you are about taking me with your strap on. As I’m waiting to be taken from Mistress I feel her flogger rub my back and slide down. I feel so submissive to you and your power at this moment. You stay in my thoughts so much of the time any more. Mistress. I feel your flogger strike me then again and again. Each time you strike me I feel a rush. I feel your power it’s over whelming. You also use your slapper with alternating strokes. As you switch from flogger and slapper with every other stroke. The feeling gets more intense with every wack. My submission grows, and my willingness to serve you Mistress. That’s when you ask me if I want your strap on. I tell you yes More than ever Mistress. You pour some lube on to my hole, and you do this a couple times. Then I feel your cock going right up my ass from the previous cock training and sessions. You fuck me deep and fast with the almost the littlest cock but its 8 inches long. As you take my ass you grab my hips and pull me so deep onto your cock. When you think I’m ready you ask me if I want your bigger cock, and its also 8 inches long but 3 times fatter than the first cock. I beg you for it Mistress you pull out, and tell me not to move. You return with your bigger cock and just push the head right in you like this a lot. Then you push it deep and take me with your cock at your will. You make me take it for some time then you inform me your going to take me with a black cock. This cock is bigger than anything I have ever had penetrating me. So big and black, but its longer than anything I have ever taken. You push the head right in ever so slowly. My ass just accepts this because of your training Mistress. You make me take this cock all of it. I felt so full and I have never felt anything like being your slut in this way. I can feel pre cum flowing out of me. As you fuck my ass so deep. Mistress you make me ride your cock till I’m done, and cant take no more. You keep telling me that I’m a good slut as I take your huge cock every inch possible. You release me from the strap on, and not long after that saying I have taken enough for you, and how proud of me you are for being so good. Then you tell me to come over to your chair as you sit. You tell me to orally service you to show you how much I like to lick you. You instruct me on exactly how to lick you in a sweet, but firm voice. As I lick you I can taste my cum inside you. You ask me how you taste I say just wonderful. I love tasting our cum together at the same time as you feed it to me from your sweet pussy. Then you are finished and tell me to go clean up for you. I ask if I may take a shower and you allow it. As I’m in the shower I just feel so lucky to have a Mistress that takes such good care of her property. All I ever want is to make you happy Mistress. Thank you so much Mistress for letting me serve you. I live to serve you and crave it every day. We sit and chat about our experiences for a while. Then you tell me to go look for us cock to share online and answer the posts. As I’m looking through the listings for cock. I just think how I want to serve you more and more. To give Mistress complete control of my thoughts, my service, and too make your limits my limits. Then Mistresses roommates come home later that evening. I get corrected in front of them for not addressing Mistress properly at the moment. I felt embarrassed getting corrected in front of them more than usual. I continued serving Mistress the rest of the night. Mistress sent me to the store to get some food to make for dinner. When I returned home with the stuff to make dinner. I got to help cook with Mistress. After we finished cooking I fixed Mistress a plate to eat, and fetched her something to drink. We finished her night by watching TV on the couch with her roommates. We retire late to your bed Mistress. We talk about our busy day we had. How much we both enjoyed each other. And all the exciting times we shared, like me taking all that big black cock the first try. Then I was made to clean the rest of my cum out of my beautiful Mistress before bed. There was still a lot of cum inside Mistress’s beautiful, sweet, wet, and tight pussy. As I licked Mistress to multiple orgasms, listening to her moans. I hope she knows how truly happy I am to serve her and make her happiness a priority always of mine. When I clean every drop of my cum out of you, and you are satisfied. You hold me showing me how important my service and devotion is to you. How important of a person I am to you. I always feel wanted and loved by you Mistress. I love you so much Mistress. I never want to be apart from you. I always carry a piece of you around with me in my heart. Your really Beautiful Mistress, and very sexy too. As I drift off to sleep at your feet holding and kissing them. I think how I want to serve you always.
10/13/2010 1:56:32 PM:Today I was told to write in my journal by Mistress. She asked me to express some feelings about some of the training me, and her have experienced together. She has been really pushing me with cock training with her cock. She makes me suck it and take the huge cock deep in my ass. She loves to use my ass and mouth I can see the enjoyment it brings her. This training makes me feel more submissive than anything. Mistress loves to hear me beg for her to fuck me with her big cock. I have been thinking a lot about her cock training me more and more every day. When we talk about it before hand it excites me, and makes me want to do anything for it. I’ve also have taken multiple fingers and almost her whole hand at one point. I thought that was really hot feeling her penetrate me with her hand and fingers. She will play with my ass anywhere. She will walk up just put her hand on my ass or just penetrate me right there. Mistress has done this in public at a Camp ground even in front of her friends. No one notices because she is careful. It excites me when she just grabs me, and plays with my ass filling me up so full. I always feel so slutty and submissive. Mistress also has been training me more how to orally service her. She will have me on my back and just climb on top of my face. Then she will queen me till she is happy, and satisfied. I feel the power she has over me because, she will control my breaths and the rhythm. I just lie there and take her face fucking and do as I’m instructed. I have been spending more and more time with Mistress. A lot has to do with Submissive guys always canceling their pro sessions at the last minute. It is frustrating for Mistress; she always rewards me with her time and presence. I get to serve her and to make her feel better as the evening goes on. We have grown together like I’ve never felt with any other. I trust her in all aspects of my life. I live to serve Mistress. I crave her all the time her power her control. She is so beautiful to me I worship every party of her. I’m so lucky to serve her and be owned by her. Thank you Mistress for letting me serve you.
7/6/2010 8:33:06 AM: I have once again been ordered to write in my journal by Mistress. I am very excited to share my experiences and my thoughts of her ownership of me. I have many fulfilling moments serving Mistress in the past month. This moment sticks out in our most recent visit and training session: I was texting Mistress earlier that day like usual and She asked what I was doing today. I answered Mistress that my plans had changed and now I was free to do what ever she needed. She asked if I would like a session and I was really excited and ready to serve Her again. So we made plans for Her to come see me at my house. I left my door unlocked as I went to the store and picked up a pizza. As I was returning home Mistress’s car was in my driveway. I opened the door and Mistress was sitting on the couch waiting for her slave to bring her dinner. I greeted her with a big smile and lots of excitement. I’m always excited to serve Mistress--its what my life is about now. I live to bring a smile to her face and hear her reward me when I deserve it. I fixed Mistress a plate and made sure she had everything she wanted for dinner. We sat and chatted and enjoyed our pizza. I always feel submissive around Mistress, but lately I feel Her power and control take over every part of me more and more. I give in to Her power because it’s very fulfilling being Her slave and I’m so lucky to be Her slave. After dinner we talked for a bit as we settled in, sometimes I get lost in praising or worshiping Mistress I enjoy it so much. When she lets me worship her body I want to never stop. Mistress ordered me to serve her over and over all night. As I was serving Mistress orally she indicated that She was done and just rolled over and wanted sleep. She ordered me off the bed and to the couch. This moment was so emotional fulfilling for me as Her submissive slave, because I brought Her so much pleasure that night. When the session ended I didn’t think about my own selfish pleasures, I just laid on the couch admiring Mistress watching her settle into bed. Mistress did let me come back to the bed after she watched me on the couch for a few minutes. She let me be close to Her as we said goodnight. My mouth was sore from being with Mistress, but the pain was little for all the reward I got for making Mistress so happy. Every time I would move my mouth it would remind me of all the hours of pleasing Mistress. I have always learned a lot from Mistress, by listening to every word she has spoken. Through out my training she has corrected a lot of my bad behaviors. Such as, not opening a door, leaving the toilet seat up, and not addressing her correctly, or fast enough. I keep leaving the toilet seat up over and over Mistress doesn’t like it at all. She has to waste her time correcting me. Mistress told me next time that she would put my balls in between the seat and smash them if I did it again. I must slow down; correct this immediately or I will have smashed balls and sitting to pee always. I apologize again Mistress for being so disrespectful and not listening the first time. As your slave I must try harder.
7/2/2010 1:23:10 AM: I have been ordered to start writing a journal, as my slave brother does. I am happy to do this because My mistress loves seeing her work on display for all to enjoy.~~This month has been so new and exciting for me. I have been waiting years to be owned and trained by a strong, dominate, Woman like my Mistress. My journey started with a simple message from my Mistress, wanting to know more about me and I responded immediately. As we started chatting in the beginning I knew from the start She was the one that I truly wanted to serve and please. Her being pleased with me is my first priority. I have made mistakes in the beginning since I’m new to this lifestyle, but My Mistress has trained me for over a month now and I have learned so many new things about what pleases Her and why I should please Her. For our first meeting we met at a Mexican restaurant. I arrived too early and was told by my Mistress that I would have to wait on Her and to get used to that idea. I waited nervously on my now Mistress at a booth where I could see the door. Every time the door opened and closed I looked to see if it was Her and then at last She walked through the door with a beautiful smile on Her face and as She walked down the stairs She waved hello. I was so excited and happy to finally meet Her after all the chats online or on the phone and it was nice to finally share a great meal together and we hit it off from the start. After our lunch She told me to follow you Her to Her home. When I walked in, I was told to strip and She inspected Me. She takes a lot of pleasure in my body She gave me some compliments at the time but I still felt so nervous in front of Her naked. She command me to please you for an hour, which seems like 5 minutes, because I loved serving Her so. At the end of the first meeting, She made me consume my own cum. I had never tried my own cum before but I licked it off Her your fingers will little trouble. It really was a submissive moment I'll never forget.She looked so pleased and from then on I have lived to please my Mistress. I am Her property completely. Every text, chat, phone call, or session with her She gains more control over me. The month of June went by so fast I had a few sessions with Mistress and they were great sessions. So many new experiences, and the most important one is that I was asked to be collared by Mistress on Saturday, June 19, 2010. I was so shocked when She asked me--I accepted immediately with a yes Ma’am….. then she told me I was now to call her Mistress. Mistress asked me to be collared before she could order my collar, but tonight She let me have an opinion on my adornments and we officially ordered it! I’m very excited and I cant wait till Mistress places it around my neck. Mistress took me strap-on shopping this month during a session, and I found it to be very humiliating. Mistress and the store clerk, which was a Woman, talked about all the different strap ons right in front of me, what condoms to use, what cocks would fit and which wouldn't. A group stood by the counter and Mistress even made a big deal about which condoms to use, got the group interested in the discussion. Everyone in the store knew it was for me but I accepted it because it made Mistress so happy. She was filled with excitement when we left the store. She couldn’t wait to try it out. I love when Mistress uses her new cock on me--its overwhelming feeling that takes my breath away. She calls me her ass whore, which I am (hell, even today I bought her a bigger cock as a surprise for it). I’m also her bitch and anything else she wants to call me is fine with me. I am very happy these days now that I am owed by Mistress and very proud too. I belong under her and I love to worship her. Public play can be tough at times but I made it a point to call her Mistress in public instead of Ma'am (which She so graciously allows)and She told me it pleased her a lot. That's what I want to do always. I am now her slave I live to please her, I want to please her, and I need to please her.
Former Slave john:
5/29/2010 1:04:54 PM Well, as a slave I am still learning. I have never had trouble explaining myself to anyone until now. For some reason I use all the wrong words at times. This morning Mistress asked me if I was enjoying my chastity. I told her I didn't think she would enjoy it as much as she does. Then said that I like it just not every day. Of course that upset her. I wasn't allowed to wear it. I meant that I love wearing it because she is enjoying it so much. I wouldn't put it on myself though. It's a different enjoyment. I think she understood what I meant, bit was still upset at how it came out. It really hurts me when I disappoint Mistress. I feel like I am not worthy of her. I want to do whatever it takes to make up for it. I really hate it wen she is upset with me. I know it is my fault and I blame myself for it. I just don't get how I do it as often as I do. How can I mess up my words so easily with her. The woman I am owned by. I am trying my best to watch my tone and my words. That's all I can do.
Thereat of the day went well though. We chatted and of course she controlled everything just like usual. I really do love serving her. She is a wonderful domme. When she isn't able to control me I feel lost. I hate it. I keep checking my phone for a message saying she is back even though it didn't ring. I just think maybe I missed it. I never thought I could ever enjoy being someone slave this much. She is on my mind all the time. All I ever want is to please her and cheer her up if things arnt going good for her. I really am very lucky to have such a wonderful Mistress.
It seems that a lot of subs have been making her upset. Just because she wants a gift from time to time. She really isn't about money. Just think about it. If you were to take a date out you would pay and if you started dating you would give her gifts. This is no different. Just because she is in charge doesn't mean she should be treated any less. Actually, she should be treated better. All these subs want all this stuff done to them but they forget it's not about them. If it is then they aren't a sub.
5/25/2010 10:51:40 PM Today was a perfect day. I went to see my Mistress (I am finally allowed to call her that). I showed up at her place today and as soon as I got to the door she started kissing me-- I have missed that so much. She was wearing her new heels, jeans and a tank top. She was gorgeous. The kiss was amazing. She then had me sit with her and we just stared at each other and kissed some more. She made me get on my knees and worship her heels. I loved it. They are so sexy on her, I was in heaven. She ordered me to look up and she was holding my collar(bracelet)-I couldn't hide my smile. She made me tell her why I deserve it and when I was done she offered it to me, not from my response but because She has been consistently impressed with what I've offered to her in the way of control and service.I spent most of the day bringing her to orgasm (it was the first time I got to touch her there and it was worth the wait). She did allow me to cum in a way I never expected and I loved it. I actually came twice right in a row. So much cum. Of course I licked some of it up. She loved it and was so ecstatic about the amount of cum I produced. SHE LOVES CUM. I leak a lot of precum all day and she was really excited about that as well. We then fitted the bracelet and went to lunch. She of course picked. She did allow me to pick what I ordered and did not spit in my food or crush my nuts at lunch and I thought that was very nice. I also drove her around for a little bit while she made fun of my vehicle hardcore. After lunch we returned to Her place where we just relaxed for a bit. I then got to be smothered by her --it was prefect. I have never been so aroused by not being able to breath. She really enjoyed it. She then just played with me for a bit. Licking her heels, legs, chest, neck and more. I was hard almost all day. She di bare hand spank me also--it stung for a minute, but coming from her I loved it. I don't know how many orgasms Mistress had, but she said she was very satisfied. She did give some more tips on pleasing her as I am still being molded. We didn't use any toys or anything today an it was actually really great. It just flowed perfectly. Mistress didn't try to rush anything which I love. I had all these thoughts on what could happen, but what she did today was better than I could have ever imagined. I am so happy I am owned by her now. That really was the best part though.
I had my first face slap yesterday. I got a little carried away a few times and Mistress put me back in my place by slapping me. I have never had that happen before. She didn't slap me as hard as she could have, but it stung. The first time she did it I was so shocked. I was actually a little pissed off for a moment, because I'm a little bitch and can't take the simplest form of physical restraint. I didn't say anything, but it was difficult not to. I sucked it up and said sorry Mistress. She said I looked so pathetic after she did it, and that she loves that look on all men. I told Her I was sorry for getting out of line. It was hard for me because I'm a pussy, but I'm still learning.
Mistress also squeezed and smashed her cock an balls. I do love cbt :) I think my favorite was when she lifted her heels up to Her balls and continued to smash them by lifting up. It caused some pain, but it was more sensual pain I think. She also loves to squeeze Her cock. She kept wrapping Her fingers around it and cutting of it's circulation--loved that also. She would then bend it some and that's when I knew it wasn't mine anymore. She just smiled wide while she did that. She loved squeezing her balls. I like pain, but I know I can't handle everything. She would squeeze them and pull on them. I usually moaned and begged her to stop like a worthless cunt. She then told me to breath slowly so She could enjoy my pain more. That helped a lot. She kept doing it harder and longer. It was painful, but her joy was worth it. I want to take all she can give me. I don't want to let her down in any way. So do I just lay there and take everything? Or do I say when it is too much? She did give me a safeword and that meant so much to me. I know the more we do, the more I will learn to take. I just wish I could take everything for her. Even if it is to much I still want to do it because seeing her smile is worth it.
Ma'am also out with another sub last night. I am truly happy she has other subs, but I can't help to be a little jealous at the same time. The thought of them kissing her or licking her is what does it. I know I am very lucky to be her sub and I know I get more attention than any other sub. I still haven't had the pleasure of licking her and I think that is part of it. At the same time I'm glad Ma'am has waited with me for that. I feel like I have to earn it. I wish I could devote more time to her in person. I do love to hear how it goes with her other subs also. I just want her to be happy and I know that involves other subs. She is so wonderful that I would rather have part of her than nothing at all. I love being controlled by her. She has been so wonderful. I really couldn't imagine serving another. I know I mess up from time to time, but I think that is expected at the beginning. I really do hope she offers me a collar. I know she is very happy with me and she says I am a good boy. When I hear that I get the biggest smile. I think being honored to be her first collared sub would be perfect.
5/21/2010 10:21:12 PM Today was a great day. Ma'am had me take pictures of my clothes so she can dress me each day. She also had me wear a chastity today. She really wasn't into it, but she ended up really liking it she said. She didn't like the idea of always being locked up, but what she liked was me straining in it all day. She teased me a lot and loved it. She said she will enjoy it more in person though. I can’t wait till Tuesday. She also let me request some pictures of her. She is so gorgeous. I was straining so much in the chastity. She is the most wonderful domme. Thank you for a great day Ma'am.
5/20/2010 10:49:29 PM Today was a really good day over all. I woke up on time to call and wake Ma'am. She was very proud of me. I spent the rest of the morning chatting with her and entertaining her. When I was allowed to shower I milked myself 4 times as told by Ma'am. In the afternoon she ordered me to cum, but I had to squeeze the head as I was cumming. She suprised me and talked on the phone while I was doing this. She made me beg for release and she eventually let me. Out of all the times I have cum in my life I have never squeezed the head. It was very interesting. I felt very stopped up like it was going to explode. I also stay hard for a long time after. When I let go of the head it just kept leaking out. It was actually amazing. Shortly after that I did disappoint her. She told me to put the plug in and I expressed to her that I don't like the plug. I do enjoy that she loves it and I do love anal when it ordered, but personally I wouldn't do it on my own. She wa upset because I gave her my opinion on it. It didn't matter that I was going to do it. It was the fact that I gave resistance. She was mad for a little bit and then told me I will have it in for 3 hours now. I put it in and it was fine for about the first hour. I went to the store and it started coming out. I had to hide behind things to put it back in. It came out about six times. I was so scared someone would see it. At one point it fell put of my pants leg. I was alone in the isle thankfully. I felt so humiliated. I was walking very funny. Especially when I felt it slipping out. I did leave it in as told. I told Ma'am what happened and she loved it. I was very happy I could please her. O am still learning when to keep my mouth shut I guess. Thankfully Ma'am has been patient with me. I can't wait for tomorrow.
5/18/2010 10:01:58 AM I am sitting here waiting for punishment for not following Ma'am's instructions this morning. It was a very easy instruction, but i messed it up. i was told to call her at 8:30 this morning and wake her up. i didn't call untill 8:40 and that was because She sent me a message saying "8:30 means 8:30." i was actually up at 6:30 today but i dozed off about 8. After waking up, i called Her and i know i have mad mistakes before, but this was the first time i heard the disappointment in her voice. i felt so bad. i just wanted to crawl away. It was an eye opener. All i had to do was set an alarm and i would have had no problems. Right now She is not talking to me and that is even worse. i know She is upset and this is part of my punishment, but i feel worse hearing her disappointment. She has been let down by a lot of other subs and i hate that i have done similar now. i told her i was different and i pull this. i know i will have to make it up to her somehow, but i don't know how yet
This is an extension from the previous journal entry. i was supposed to call and wake Ma'am up at 8:30 and i didn't so i was punished today. As i said earlier, the worst punishment was hearing the disappointment in her voice. The first time hearing that made it so much worse. We chatted for a little while about my actions and She decided to punish me. She told me to smash MY cock (She disowned it for the time i was being punished). i put it in a drawer and smashed it and then smashed it with a pair of heels. She was angry with the second one because of the meaning of the heels. She told me to sit in the corner and all i could speak was with "yes or no Ma'am." i said 'Sorry Ma'am' for the shoes so she made me put foaming soap in my mouth for 1 minute. i hate that. It is so disgusting and the taste stays for so long. i did as i was told and she then ordered me to take a cold shower with my head on the shower floor for ten minutes. i have never had a cold shower before--i was shaking so bad in there. It actually started to sting a little towards the end! i crawled out and waited for Ma'am to say i could get up and dry off. She said she was pleased and i felt so relieved. She ordered a picture of me smiling at that point and i was very happy to oblige Her. i know this doesn't mean i am off the hook for what I have done, but i am just glad she is molding me into Her ideal boy. Thank you Ma'am.
5/17/2010 11:13:18 PM Ma'am would like me to write about something She has done that made me very hot. The first thing that came to mind was a pair of shoes i got for Her. She picked the shoes out and i sent them to Her. She was so excited to get them, but i think i was actually more excited. She knows i have a huge heel fetish. She is so great to me that when they arrived She sent me pictures of them right away. i was so turned on by them and thought they were the most wonderful pictures ever. i felt like the luckiest submissive ever. She teased me with the pictures a little bit, but i never expected what i received a couple days later--She sent me a picture of Her licking the heel. i was floored. i was so turned on by it. my heart raced just by this picture. Then She sent me a second and it was even more of a turn-on. i can't believe how good She is to me. i know She was just teasing me with them, but they did mean a lot to me. Thank you Ma'am.
5/17/2010 12:08:21 AM Ma'am would like me to write about a punishment i received earlier today. She sent me specific instruction on a picture that She wanted. She wanted the next picture She received from me to be of me naked with me licking the floor. She wanted it from an angle like She was looking down at me. i understood the task and had every intention of doing it.
We were chatting and i didn't have an opportunity to complete it yet. i thought i would send Her a different picture until i could make the one She wanted. She got very upset with me. She said the next picture she wanted was the one She spoke of and i sent Her something else. i understand Her getting upset because i did fail to follow everything. The thing is She told me to take my time getting it to Her. She wasn't rushing me at all. i think the worst part was how i know i let Her down. A simple little detail broke my obedience to her. i truly felt horrible after that. She was quiet after that which made it worse. i decided to lick the garage floor in the house since it is the dirtiest floor. i felt that was my place. It seemed to cheer Her up a little but i still felt like i let her down. i have been punished before by putting foaming soap in my mouth and time out. The soap was horrible and stayed in my mouth all night. The worst thing is not being able to speak to her though. i would take soap any day over time-outs. i am still new to serving Her and i know i will mess up, but i need to pay more attention to every little thing. i'm sure i will be adding more to this as i go along, but hopefully not to often.
5/16/2010 11:30:33 AM This will be the first of many journal entries because Ma'am wants me to put in here things that have been exciting me, what i am thinking and how i am feeling about serving Her. i am very excited about it personally. i have been in training with Her for a couple of weeks now. She is the first Domme i have served in a lifestyle form. It is everything i hoped it would be. She is wonderful to me. She actually listens to me, but of course, it is still all about Her needs. From the moment i wake up all i think about is how to please Her and make Her smile. There are many things going on in my life, but She is actually on my mind more than any of them.
